8 posts tagged “ex # 5”
Yesterday I went and bought two more dvds for my collection of sappy romantic movies! Mostly because both of them have Italian language options.
I got "You've Got Mail" (C'è posta per lei) and "While you were Sleeping" (mentre sono stati posti letto):
Then today... major excitement! my parents and I went to a shop in Broadway to buy my mini-laptop! OMG! so cute! so pink!
It's a MSI wind U100, and we upgraded the RAM to 2gb. It came with a cute little cover as well. It's a 10 inch screen, which is a little bit bigger than an A5 page (half A4), and it weighs slightly less than a kilo. Cuteness! and photos:
Anyway! I watched 'you've got mail' last night, so tonight is 'while you were sleeping!' hehe, too cute, I've put the electric blanket that ex # 5 left here on my bed, and willum loves it. He comes and sits on the edge of the bed with me and we watch trashy movies with the Italian language and English subtitles on!
Is my mum the only one who uses the word pogged? as in, stuffed, overeaten, totally, utterly, stomach stretchingly full of food? I think she is.
Anyway. I want to share pirate stories and photos but I cant find my camera connection cable thingo.
So yes. Suffice to say that add to ex #2 and #5 contacting me along with italian teacher, at the pirate party I had my friend's 18 year old brother and a close friend hitting on me. All incredibly flattering but makes me wonder what kind of vibe I'm putting out.
Tonight we had a work function at a greek restaurant. The food was delicious and it was really nice chatting to work people. My boss read my coffee cup, haha, I honestly have to write down what she says every time so I can check back to see if it came true.
- She asked if I was going to be speaking at my graduation or in front of an audience any time soon. Not that I know of!
- She asked if I was going to the circus (as in, people circus like circe du soleil) but I didn't have any plans to. It's funny, ex # 2 and i spoke about that last night when we caught up.
- to spray my shoes with hairspray to stop me falling over, as the floor at graduation would be super shiny
- watch out for the guy sitting behind my parents at graduation, 3-4 years older, well dressed, sitting by himself.
- she heard the song 'maneater' by nelly furtardo, like, hope that isn't a reflection of my personality, LOL.
- a lot would happen between now and the end of the year, a lot more than in the first two thirds of the year.
- she saw a dove with it's wings outstretched sitting on top of the hat, symbolic of changing life directions and a fresh start and peace etc.
Honestly, peace is what I want more than anything. I'm so tired of being stressed and worried, and I don't deal with confrontation well at all. In fact, to say I don't deal with it full stop would be a fair assessment!
so yes. I wish i could win a billion dollars. I think I'd quit my job and take a holiday in the carribean :D
In fact, I'm really into the caribbean at the moment, it sounds awesome.
holy cow! today was seriously the most awful day in ages!
PTCH. Stupido is the same in English and Italian. At least we have that much in common. And it seems to me, an excellent word to add to my vocabulary bearing in mind the è stupido-ness of various people in my life.
Take for example, ex number 5 (ex numera cinque). Spoke on msn today to organise a pick up time for (hopefully, as in all fingers and toes crossed and begging whatever powers that be) THE LAST of his stuff (please.) We've already met up maybe 5 times already, things keep getting left out and forgotten so we meet up at his uni (across the road from my house, max 500 meters walk.) I hand him his stuff. Then he goes through it, hands half of it back and I throw it out when I get home.
WELL... Maybe I'm being bitchy. I don't know. But I think 4 or 5 times is ENOUGH. I'm doing him a favour by offering his stuff to him, I could have just sold it on ebay or whatever without telling him! But more than that, why should I meet him at his uni? it's not MY stuff... if I was to get stuff off him, I'd have to drive to his house - over an hour away! but him, coming to uni, won't even step off campus. So I said I'd leave it outside undercover on monday, and anything left on friday I would throw out/assume he didn't want. But he's not comfortable coming to my house. Like what? it's outside. No one will see you. Come in the dead of night - honestly, doesn't bother me or my fam in the slightest if you're quiet.
I basically said, too bad, I was going to leave the stuff like I said, since I found the meetings stressful. I'd worry before hand, I'd have to nag him to organise them, and usually he'd call me the day before and try to meet up at 9am the following morning. (I do have a life you know, even if nothing happens in it. I have meetings and work commitments and uni and stuff!).
His response? yeah you go back to your perfect life, your little world where you always succeed. And I was like, what? what on earth does that have to do with you collecting your stuff. Not to mention, hello, one of the biggest failures of reccent months? my inability to put our relationship back together, DUH. (E STUPIDO Ex!)
So yeah... I basically said that - that I don't always succeed, and he was like, yeah whatever fuck off I don't want to talk to you anymore.
Um, ok. At least he's collecting the stuff on monday. Right?
I swear, when is this going to end? we have been split up for over THREE MONTHS. Come on, stop dragging it out you masochistic jerk, lol.
Ok, have more to whinge about but also have presents from meeting Alison who came back from Europe!!! will photograph and post tomorrow hopefully. (much better than seeing this post for 2 weeks, lol.)
Night night voxers.
is that either my life is really boring and I don't want to record it. Or something great happens and I don't want to do it an injustice by writing about it by posting in a hurry. But at the same time it's like, but I don't want to forget that memory!
- I'll graduate and get a job from whatever area I'm studying quite quickly after graduation
- I will have to make a choice between two men - one is intellectual, on the same wavelength as me, the other loves me a lot but needs more understanding from both parties for the relationship to work
- I will get the money I'm concerned about and it will be used for something useful, not frivolous or silly.
- I should and will go overseas - if ex # 5 really loves me he will understand and try again when I return
- I'll be married by 2012, pregnant by 2013 (last time she said not much before 2014)
- I should keep a purple stone in my room or on my person for luck
- 8 is my lucky number, there won't be problems in my life I can't solve if I'm patient
- In my future career, she saw me holding conferences and travelling a lot for work (but this could be teaching children, tour guiding, any number of things).
- I will have two children, one of which will definitely be a boy
- I will only get married once
- she will go on a trip fairly soon, and when she comes back...
- she'll meet a slightly older man who has a powerful/responsible job
- she'll be married by 2010
- she should wear gold things as they bring her luck
Do you know, whenever something happens that I'm not quite sure how to explain, I don't post. Usually it's something bad or awkward. And then as time goes on, it gets harder and harder to catch up so you have weeks without a post.
Sucks.
BUT
Here I am again :D The last few weeks have been a bit of a nightmare... last assignment for uni, FINALLY handed in! woohoo! then, ex # 5 rang me at like 3am one night and asked to talk and he sounded pretty glum so I went outside and sat in the street with him for a while. Knowing what I know now it's easy to make a decision but basically he begged me to get back together. He said I was the love of his life, he wanted to spend the rest of his days with me... he basically pushed all my buttons, said all the right things. And I thought, why didn't you say any of this when I was splitting up with you? I didn't really want to break up but I couldn't really see what else to do.
I spent time thinking about it, and worrying about it, and what I would say, and how I should say it, and what I should do...
And I thought, I love this guy. I really do. But enough is enough. I need to say 'no' so that I know that I can - that I'm not just going to cave every time someone asks me to do something for THEM. Because it hurts THEM to be apart. I was seriously stressed about it, thinking, I've already done this once, why should I have to go through this again? I hate hurting peoples feelings more than ANYTHING. Really, really hate it. I was the type of kid who cried when someone else did because it upset me to see them sad. So I worried away for a while, and I finally got up the courage and told him. And he said he already knew, and yada yada, and that it could have worked in another time and place, and basically left me feeling massively deflated - why say all that stuff, and then come back with that response? had he meant a single word of it? who knows? maybe he did at the time.
Anyway, so basically, I'm still single. The title of this post actually refers to something else though -
I finished my first ever knitted garment! and when I can be bothered charging my camera, taking photos, connecting the camera to my comp, uploading and resizing my photos etc, I will post a picture of it.
In other news, my 2 ebay items arrived, a pair of white/cream boots and a pleated wool skirt for work. V. Exciting stuff. Add to that, mum and I went to the craft fair the other day. My newest project is a star quilt. I bought a stack of material with Asian inspired prints - they are too adorable for words! I got a few patterns, inlcuding one that has red, cream/beige and brown fireflies on a dark blue background, and two which have the most adorable leaping bunnies on them. One is in red with beige bunnies and pink cherry blossoms, the other is dark blue with beige bunnies. I'm going to use them to make a whole lot of star squares for another double bed quilt. I'm going to make it bigger than my last one since even ex #5 who was a stick would hog the covers - it covers the bed really well but not when two people are sleeping in it. So the next one will be designed to fit two FAT people underneath :D
lol.
I should post pics. Will do soon, have to sleep now. Much crafting to do tomorrow, and possibly a run..
Today was pretty oddball all round.
For a start, I had to go to another work training day (paid). We're in the process of earning Certificate IV in frontline management, and this was our second training day (the last one was the day before ex #5 and I broke up you will recall! two weeks already!) So I got up early to go to work and I was playing with Willum. He was preening my clothes like he does, but he didn't realise that he was getting closer and closer to my skin, so I'm leaning over him on my hands and knees and kissing his back while he's preening the edge of my singlet top, and he accidentally caught my skin! I know he didn't mean to, but it's just so funny - I have what looks like a love bite on one of my boobs now from where he nipped me! (except that there is a cut from his sharp little fangs, haha!)
Then, I went into work, and embarrased myself on the bus when my earphones came out of my phone mp3 player right in the middle of an Abba song. Like way to get caught listening to shameful music!
The training was pretty ok, we talked about team development and individual development. It kind of annoys me that for this session we had to do two 1 page reports, and for next session (one month from now) we have ANOTHER 3 reports. They're to demonstrate that we understand the content of the units, but why not just get us to complete them in class? no one would know anyway.. my boss said we can do them at work though, and I think I'll do mine this week since in a month from now I won't remember everything we were speaking about.
Anyway! LUNCH! (paid for by work, which is really nice!) and I have a cappuccino. Then I remembered that my boss does coffee cup readings so she did a reading of mine. She picked up on some really interesting things so i can't wait to see what pans out! here is what she said so I have a reference for later:
- I should check the tires on my car - especially air pressure. Not likely to have an accident but could be inconvenienced by being stuck somewhere with crap tyres
- she saw a heart in the cup, but also a shield which represents protecting yourself or not being 100% open as you've been hurt (which is obviously completely natural in my case)
- she saw me going out with friends and having a good time, not being a hermit, or going crazy and over the top
- she saw the rabbit and laughed about him, she said he can tell that my energy has changed recently so if he's been acting really well lately it's because he knows I'm not myself and he wants to spoil me. The way she described it was that he has felt very loved by us so now he wants to show us that he will love me back.
- She saw me getting a lot of enjoyment and pleasure out of listening to music perhaps a guitar or a flute, something like that
- also that I should do things by myself if no one is available to them with me, to prove to myself that I can have fun doing things alone, but also because it's important for my spiritual growth (for want of a better phrase)
- she asked if I was considering moving out and said she saw some kind of distance from the home - maybe travel
- that I was weighing up a decision and comparing possible outcomes
- that I have been or will be soon looking at a necklace or something for around the neck, maybe a scarf, that costs a lot that I will go back and look at again and again (I couldn't think of anything that I've been eyeing off!)
- she saw me going somewhere hot
- basically, she could see in the cup that I am very focussed on my study and very stressed but that it's crucial that when I can I do things for myself and my own wellbeing. That travel/alone time or whatever is vital for me to move on in my life (I took it as changing my possible life direction?)
THEN she read the saucer which was really interesting!
- she saw the letter C which stands for commitment. She said she could see I wasn't afraid of commitment or of love (the letter L was also present) and then she explained that previously, the commitment and love were together, that the cup and saucer fitted (referring to the breakup) and that when I have had that alone time, when I've spent some time just doing things for ME, then the love and commitment that I'm looking for will all fall into place.
I love that kind of thing. Even if it isn't true in the sense that it's semi psychic or what have you, it's still good advice in my opinion and pretty much what I was planning on doing. I want to book a weekend away for just myself after semester is over, and I want to maybe go to the snow or somewhere, I'll be pampered, do nothing.. spend a lot of money. That was the basic plan. I'm happy being single, I'm not seeking out a relationship right now, although if one came along I wouldn't turn it down - I'm open to it, but I really do want to spend some time re evaluating who I am as a person now that I'm not 'Aaron's Girlfriend' which I guess sounds foolish but there you are.
Dinner with just Celia tonight as Janna is on her way to VIENNA (Lucky woman!) and Jasmine wasn't feeling well. Time to go to sleep now since my week is HEKTIK BRO!
quick run down even though this is the longest post ever:
monday-tuesday: assigment due on wednesday, days off work since I'm doing 2.5 full days this week instead of 5 half days.
wednesday: full day of work 8:30-5:30, hand the assignment in
thursday: half day, meeting Alerson for coffee in the morning (will bitch about men, eurovision etc!)
friday: full day
Weekend: start take home exam for HIST109 I imagine! arg!
And that is it from me. Much love, I am going to bed before I fall asleep right here. Have a good week yourselves!
The bf and I broke up this morning.
